Monday, June 21, 2010

He's Just NOT that into me...

I have been absent for a while, from blog-ville, I mean.  One would expect that I'd be posting about the girls "Fabulous First Birthday Party"... and I will.  Today though, it's another 1 year old cutie-pie that's gracing the pages of my blog!

My best friend Heidi had a beautiful baby boy Rocco, just 4 weeks before the twincesses were born.  We weren't best friends when he was born, but we've grown very close over the past year.  Heidi and I, NOT Rocco and I.  I was working in OB for a Boston hospital and Heidi was a patient (she's given me permission to disclose that).  Heidi and I share a few mutual friends and her husband and I went to school together, so we weren't complete strangers when she became pregnant and started to come in for regular visits.  One day she invited me to lunch.  We went to Cheesecake factory and I almost canceled on her.  I had an ultrasound and OB appt that morning and was supposed to meet her after.  That was the day I found out that Ava wasn't growing as expected and I was hesitant to meet her for lunch as I was feeling very nervous and unsure.  But I was hungry.  And it was Cheesecake factory and she'd be waiting for me, so I went.  It was instant friendship.  We were both pregnant, both part of big Italian families, mine by birth and hers by marriage.  She was honest and funny and she loved eating and shopping... it was a match made in pregnant/mom friendship heaven!  Just a few days later she invited me to go walking... I was so nervous.  It was like a second date with a great guy.  You know, you don't want to mess up and ruin your chances for a future date!  The thing is, I am far from physically fit and I was pregnant with twins.  Heidi was just starting to limit her daily jog/walks to one lap around the local pond rather than 2 and was a 3 time marathoner.  I forgot my water and I swear I almost went into labor trying to keep up with her.  But, she was patient and we walked and talked and talked.  The cherry on top of my new found friendship was the fact that Heidi loved Jackson.  You mom's out there know what I am talking about, right?  Some friends ooh and aah at your kids, tell you your kids are cute and bring little trinkets when they come to visit.  But nothing compares to a friend that genuinely LOVES your kids.  And Heidi did.  An Jackson LOVES her too.

So it seemed only natural that when Heidi gave birth to Rocco, that I would love him too.  And I do.  Problem is, he doesn't feel the same way about me.  I am not sure when it started.  I visited him in the hospital just days after he was born and I held him and kissed his sweet little auburn head.  I helped him latch on, when he was having trouble nursing.  I bought him cute clothes, sang sweet songs and did all of the "right" things.  Kids love me, really they do!  Maybe it's the fact that he had his first real hunger fit while visiting Ava and Emma at the hospital the day they were born.  Maybe it's because I tried to give him a bottle when Heidi was at her wits end with his refusal to take a bottle and was exhausted from the round the clock nursing.  I am not sure?

It's no secret though.  Heidi tried to brush it off at first, she'd kind of jokingly deny it... "no, he loves you, he's just fussy" or "don't worry, he's like that with everyone".  But even she could not deny it any longer.  So about a month ago she dropped him off for the afternoon, to go to a meeting and when I tell you he cried for almost an hour, I mean he sobbed and hyperventilated and crawled to the door and tried to escape for almost an HOUR!!  That's a very long time in 12 month old land!  Well, it's not going to last forever right?  I had this picture in my head of the two of us, with our babies, always there for each other and of-course we are always there for each other.  I would never turn down a request to babysit Rocco, regardless of how upset he may be at the mere sight of me.  And Heidi has bravely watched all 3 of my kids, fed them and put them all to sleep, and she had with Rocco with her as well... seriously, that is a true friend!  Oh and I should note that the girls LOVE Heidi and are all smiles when they're with her. 

Today Heidi had an ultrasound appointment and would be finding out the gender of her second baby!  She mentioned not feeling comfortable bringing Rocco, since her husband may have to leave to keep Rocco quiet and happy and would really like to be there for the whole appointment.  I of-course offered to watch Rocco.  I was eager to see if he'd warm up to me and she's always looking for the chance to acclimate Rocco to being with others.  Rocco is very attached to his mommy and daddy, and with a new baby on the way, no time is better then the present!  It stared out OK.  I woke up early and prepped... it was like getting to know Heidi all over again.  I was nervous, afraid I'd mess up.  I made him waffles, since I know he likes carbs.  I put on Curious George (his favorite).  I made sure all of his favorite toys were out.  I smiled and appeared calm when Heidi and Rocco arrived (truly I was sweating like a pig and my heart was pounding).  Hedi placed Rocco on the carpet in front of the TV, kissed him on the forehead and left.  He was fine.  For the first 3 minutes.  Once he realized she was gone, he started to cry.  Although not as hysterically as last time.  He would calm down for a few seconds, distracted by the TV or a toy and then cry again for a bit.  It seemed liked forever, but when I looked at the clock, it was only about 10 minutes.  My mom came over to say good morning and I knew Rocco would be much happier if I could get him outside, so she sat with my kids for a few minutes, while I took Rocco for a walk in the wagon.  Walking down our cul-de-sac with Rocco in the wagon, I found myself in tears.  It's silly, I know.  He's just a baby and I shouldn't take it personally.  But I do.  I want him to love me, like I love him.  Like Jackson and the girls love Heidi.  I decided I would relax and stop thinking about it.  I know kids sense things and I was a mess.

It was actually a much better visit then we had anticipated.  We came back inside and Rocco was happy playing with Jackson and crawling around.  I also discovered that he is much happier when he isn't confined.  I opened up a panel to the play yard so he could crawl in an out and he was happier sitting inside the play area, just knowing he could get out.  I even got a few smiles out of him and when his Daddy came inside to pick him up, he didn't crawl to him in tears, like I had envisioned.

One day we'll look back and laugh at these memories.  I hope.  I imagine our kids will always be close and I hope they know how lucky they are to have friends that they have known their whole life.  One day Rocco will laugh at my silly faces.  Maybe he'll even jump into my lap for a bedtime story.  For now though, I just have to accept that he's just NOT that into me.

Let's hope his baby brother feels differently!  Congrats Heidi, Chris and Rocco, we can't wait to meet baby boy #2!!



Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Ava + Emma + Cake = LOVE!!

I am too tired to do a long and detailed post and the hundreds of pictures that I took today still need some editing!  I will say that it was a GREAT day, Ava and Emma were smiling from start to finish and of-course they LOVE cake!!

Happy Birthday my loves!!  

Stay tuned for a full 1st Birthday recap and more deliciously adorable pictures!!


Tuesday, June 1, 2010

ONE last post...

... before the Twincesses are ONE!!  Ava and Emma will be 1 in just under an hour!  I am not going to lie, I have been a bit of a wreck all day.  I just can't believe how quickly this past year has flown bye and I am missing the days where my babies were tiny and sleeping swaddled in their co-sleeper.  I truly look forward to each and every moment and milestone with my kids.  I can't wait to see Jackson get on the school bus one day.  I eagerly await the girls taking their first steps, saying "Jackson" for the first time, and so much more!  But it all happens way too fast for me.  And maybe a part of it, is that Ava and Emma are most likely the last babies I will have?  I was emotional when Jackson turned 1 also, but not like this.  I was in line at the party store tonight and I found myself holding back tears while looking up at the balloons I was picking up.  When I got home, the kids were in bed and Rick was in the kitchen, I handed him the balloons and started to cry.  He looked at me confused and said "Tanya, you do realize that we are keeping them, right... I mean you're acting like we have to give them back or something".

I decorated their high chairs tonight, I am sure they will be very excited to see the balloons.  Jackson made the girls each a birthday card, with some help from Rick and they came out really cute!  I need to get some sleep, we have a big day planned tomorrow and I want to get up early and make a big breakfast for my BIRTHDAY girls!  


Sunday, May 30, 2010

Memorial Day

We have had such beautiful weather here in Boston!  I hope all of you are enjoying your families and friends and  the long holiday weekend!    

I am also hoping that everyone finds a minute in between all of the BBQs, swimming, boating, spring cleaning, or whatever it is that you're up to this weekend, to stop think about all of the brave men and women who have served our country and have sacrificed their lives doing so.  For without them, we wouldn't have the freedom to do so many of the things we often take for granted.

Thanks to my grandfather, my father-in-law, my husband and our dear friends still serving us.  Special thanks to those who have made the greatest sacrifice and to their families.  May you have peace this Memorial Day.


Saturday, May 15, 2010

Saturday Snapshot: Sneakers

I love this picture of all of our sneakers lined up, it reminds me that we are a family of FIVE!!


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Way Back Wednesday: Soccer

Jackson's been begging to play soccer lately!  We are signing him up at the Local YMCA, since it seems he's genuinely tortured by the idea of waiting for the 1 week clinic in August that's offered by our town recreation dept.

These pics were taken in July of 2008, also at the YMCA.  As you can sort of tell, Jackson didn't really get into it.  He was always looking the wrong way, or running in the oppoite direction and his favorite part was the water breaks.  To be honest, the 45 minute session was more like a long water break with a couple 5 minute soccer ball chasing sessions sprinkled in for good measure!

Below are some pictures taken last week at my sister, Allison's house and as you can see, he has definitely improved!  Jackson's cousins, Orlando, 11 and Justin, 9 are super athletes and especially good at Soccer!  Of-course they are also the coolest kids on the planet, so Jackson is all the more excited to improve his skills and "play with the big boys"!!


Monday, May 10, 2010

Makes My Monday: We have a walker!!

Gotcha!  I'll bet you thought one of the Twincesses had taken her first steps.  Nope.  Not even close actually, but they are both crawling now.  Well technically they are army crawling, but they look more like little inch-worms.

One of my twin mom friends gave us a walker and Ava and Emma LOVE it.  It's super cute and has a nice tray that can be used for a snack or some toys.  We don't have much space, so the plan was to keep it at my mom's house and bring it to my sister's house next door, when we have a family get together there, which is quite often lately!  Well they are just so damn cute cruising around, so we decided to move some of the other toys and gear into the kids room so they could use the walker at home too.

I know everyone has their own thoughts on walkers and whether they are safe and developmentally appropriate, blah, blah, blah.  Our EI specialist thinks it's just fine and I am not planning on leaving the girls in it for ours on end, so I am not worried about it.  Oh, and we have no stairs.

So now my only issue is debating getting a second one, since whichever baby is not in the walker is in serious danger of getting run over by a crazy baby in a walker!! 



Sunday, May 9, 2010

Happy Mothers Day Mom!

Dear Mom,

Happy Mother's day!  You are the kindest and most patient person I know.  You always know just what to say, even when I don't want to hear it.  You are smart and you are strong, inside and out.  You are funny... the kind of funny where the jokes are the funniest when they aren't really funny at all.  You are nurturing and you are always thinking of others.  You are so many things.  You are a baby whisperer, an amazing cook and one of my best friends.  I am proud to have you for a mother and Jackson, Ava and Emma are blessed to have you for a grandmother  We love you, with all of our hearts. 


Saturday, May 8, 2010

Crazy Lady.

OK, so I hate to be the snobby twin-mom who gets annoyed when people ask questions and/or make comments, but there is no way around it sometimes.  I am usually very happy to answer people's questions, as crazy and inconceivable as some of them are.  I think it's sweet that every old lady in the mall wants to "just take take a peek" at Ava and Emma and ask a few questions.  My mother is a an angel and a very obsessed proud grandmother, so she's more than happy to parade the girls down the streets of town and answer questions... hell she'd probably do a Q&A session with photos at the local library or the Mall food court, if I let her!

Rick and I took Ava and Emma to Panera for dinner a few days ago and while waiting in line, we noticed a woman and her grown son (I am guessing 17yo) were checking us out.  This woman, who for the rest of this post will be referred to as Crazy Lady was just itching to say something.  I could tell.  I smiled at her and that was all she needed, she walked over and said to her son while pointing at Ava and Emma, as if Rick and I weren't there and the girls were in some sore of aquarium or glass encased exhibit "look honey it's the kind that look exactly alike".  Then she asked me "what are they called".  Me - "Twins", I said, "they are Identical twins".  Crazy Lady - "Oh, that's right, those are the kind that skip a generation, right?".  Me - "Ummm, not sure about that, but you're thinking of fraternal twins, Identical twins are not hereditary".  Crazy Lady - "Oh, I see, because my grandfather had the other kind, the kind that look different" (I assume she meant that he fathered twins, not had them, but I didn't dare question her).  It takes a lot to keep me quiet, but I had no response to that.  Crazy Lady then looks at her son and says "see honey, everyone thought that I would have twins, because my grandfather did, and he had the kind that come every other generation, but thank god I didn't"... Crazy lady then looks at me and says "no-offense though".

None taken Crazy Lady.  None Taken.


Sunday, May 2, 2010

Baby Picture Sundays!

Jackson's first trip to the beach!!  
Late July 2006, he was almost 11 months (the same age as the girls now).

Friday, April 30, 2010


I have to admit, when I found out I was expecting twins, I hoped for girls!  Mostly becuase I knew they were identical from the start.  I LOVED having a son, it was so new to me after growing up with 5 sisters and dozens of female cousins.  But becuase I knew they were the same gender, I thought it would be nice to have 2 girls.  Sisters.  Of-course I would have been terrified thrilled to have 3 boys, but I wanted a daughter.  I wanted share that bond that a mother and daughter have.  I'm pretty sure we are done with babies.  Rick wanted 2 kids and I wanted 3, so I got lucky!  Most parents would agree with me when I say, I can't imagine things any other way.  I love that the girls have an older brother to protect them and they can't get enough of Jackson's silly faces and funny dance moves.  Jackson is a total momma's boy and always has been.  I can already see that the attachment Ava and Emma have to Rick is just amazing, and sadly much stronger than any attachment they seem to have to me.  They love me of-course, but they don't look at me like they look at their father and they don't cry when I leave the room, the way they do when he does. 

I can't imagine my life without any of my sisters.  We are all so different and although we drive each other crazy, we have a bond that is unbreakable and we truly love each other unconditionally.  Ava and Emma have such a remarkable connection and I am so happy that they have each other.  I do sometimes worry that Jackson will feel like the odd man out.  He loves them so much though and he is a great big brother.  Even on his freshest day, he's almost always kind to his sisters. 

It's just amazing how close the girls are.  I am not sure if  it's because they are twins, or becuase they are identical, but hey really love each other.  They play together.  They hold hands.  They are so alike in so many ways and in others they couldn't be more different.  They are not just sisters, they are best friends!


Monday, April 26, 2010

Makes My Monday: Crawling!

It's official, we have a crawler!!  Ava started crawling today, commando style!  Her timing could not have been more perfect, since her first Army style maneuvering was done right in front of our Early Intervention specialist!  Emma is almost there, starting to get up on her knees and rock back and forth, just as Ava started a couple weeks ago.  They are really on the move and it's only going to get worse better!!

Of course, I don't have any pictures yet, but I have some super cute shots of Jackson crawling at about 9 months.  He was an Army crawler also, for the first 2 months and then crawled up on his knees for just a few weeks before he started walking.

Ava is not the only baby that's making my Monday with new found mobility... check out another extra cute little girl, who's just started walking at This Crazy Life!  And tell me... what's making your Monday?


Sunday, April 25, 2010

Ava and Emma on a bookcover!!

Some of you may remember a few months back, Ava and Emma were booked by Harlequin Novels to be on a book-cover.  I think the book is about twin boys, who are left on the doorstep of an attractive man... come on, that's totally realistic!  Anyways, the book is for sale at Amazon, for $4.50 and I can't wait to read it!  It's not my type of novel, but in this case, I am judging the book by it's cover and it's pretty damn cute!!

Friday, April 23, 2010

From the mouths of babes...

... Or in this case, Jackson!  I truly wish I had the time to write down everything that he says, because he's such a comedian and his vocabulary is very extensive.  I am sure that those of you who know me personally aren't shocked to learn that I have a child who likes to talk!  Loves to talk is more accurate, and of-course I find myself saying to Jackson those same dreaded words that my mother used to say to me... "do you ever stop talking" and "I think sometimes your just talking to hear yourself talk". 

Here are just some of Action Jackson's most recent blog-worthy quotes...

"Mommy, don't be silly... I don't just want to be a cement worker, I also want to be a gas pumper at night"

"I know I can't marry Vittoria, because she is my cousin, but when I am older, and I am I college, then can I marry her?"

After I asked him to clean up his toys, he replied "no that's OK mommy, your a big girl, you can do it" (that one earned a time-out, but Rick and I had to leave the room, so Jackson wouldn't hear us giggling).

My Favorite quote needs a little back-story.  A couple of weeks ago I took Jackson to the pediatrician for a throat culture (which was negative, but that's not the point).  While we were there Dr. A told Jackson that he was very "impressed" with his mature behavior and good manners.  On the way home Jackson asked "mommy, what does in press mean?"  I explained that the "word is impressed, not in press" and that it means that "Dr. A is proud of you".  He then asked me "are you impressed with me too mommy?"  I replied "yes Jackson, of-course I am".  "Even when you're upset with me are you impressed, mommy" he then asked.  "Yes Jackson, even when I am upset, I am always proud of you", I said.  He then asked "Mommy, sometimes are you outpressed?"  I thought that was very insightful and super cute!  

After a long explanation about how "outpressed" isn't a word, we moved on to the next million questions, but he's all about being "impressive" now and wants to make sure everyone is "impressed" with everything he does!

What are your kids saying?


Thursday, April 22, 2010

OK, so I am a day late!

I know it's not Wednesday, but since I haven't posted 2 days in a row since the week I started blogging, I figured better late than never... right?!  I have been sitting here for about 15 minutes trying to think of some clever Thursday catch phrase post title similar to "Way-Back Wednesday", but I couldn't come up with anything.

So here's my "Way-back Wednesday" photo, on Thursday...
This picture was taken during April Vacation 2007.  I can't believe how small Jackson was, he is much BIGGER than that truck now!